Hi everyone. I really didn’t forget about updating. I just let life take its course. So… I have good news and bad news. Depending on what you want to hear/read first, here goes:
I left a bookmark in the middle of my book (almost in the middle). I’m on June (Month 6) and I figured, I have time to catch up. But with this time that I felt I had left, I also made time to dig a deeper hole of somber moods and grief. Not crying grief but personal sadness and just straight up disgusting and ugly attitude. It’s been bad. Very bad but I didn’t give up on myself (that’s some good news, right?)
I’m back! I’m here to tell you what month 2 was about and what month 3 will be about for me. Good news just seems much brief that bad news. Wonder why that is… Anywho.
Month 2: October – Remember LOVE
This chapter was made for marriage. I thought I could skip it. I’m 23 (November 1st was my birthday, happy birthday me ^_^) and I’m single (Meh) so why read on? Because I’d also been reading my other book about love languages, I realized that love applied to marriage can somewhat be applied to all areas of your life. Why? Because everyone wants to be loved and sure, it may come in 5 languages, but we all need to speak it, feel it, receive it, etc.
But wait! Before I jump into October’s goals, I want to tell you what I did for September. Remember what I said about working out? I finally got my own membership at the gym. Big accomplishment for me since it was part of the goals I set for myself. Seeing my actual progress brings a slight thrill inside me and gives this great feeling I can’t put in any more words.
Okay, I’m back. Here are the goals:
- quit nagging
- don’t expect praise or appreciation
- fight right
- no dumping
- give proofs of love
It’s hard to follow said goals because well, I’m not married but it’s November now so let’s see how I did from October to November.
Quit nagging. I’m my mother’s daughter and she NAGS! I hate it and vowed to never be that person. But I think women nag in general. Can’t avoid that. I nag my friend all the time to do better in being a better friend. Because to be quite honest, he does a poor job 6 times out of 10. I hate those odds. I care deeply about him but I can’t stand spoon feeding instructions on how friendships should work. Gotta do better on that. He and I both.
Praise and appreciation. I sometimes feel like I’m not acknowledged for things that I do that I feel DESERVE acknowledgement. I want to be noticed for doing something caring. I want a “well done” from time to time. It sometimes makes me feel like I did good, not only in my eyes, but everyone’s eyes. But I’ve been letting go of that need for praise. I figured, if I do things for me and once I’m happy with it, that’s all I need. As long as I’m happy with my choice and actions, that’s all that counts.
Fight right. Okay, this is gonna be short. I never used to fight fair. But it’s unfair to play dirty. So *sulks* if you have nothing nice to say, guess I won’t be saying anything at all.
Dumping. Bad bad habit. I may confuse this with venting from time to time. And I dislike the feeling of putting my burdens on others. I need a shoulder to cry on from time to time but then, once it turns into dumping, it’s pretty much over. Getting in control of that this month. Done deal.
Proofs of love. I’m not a pro at this. I’ve been awkward at expressing love lately. But there’s time to learn. Rubin said, “Whatever love I might feel in my heart, others will see only my actions.” And that explains it right there. Only time and opportunity standing in my way of acting on the love I feel for others.
Well, that’s my month and a half in review. I did not forget about this. I made that promise to myself to keep this updated. And here it is.
Did it again Susan. Write you later folks.